When you’ve never depended on anyone else and have done everything yourself since you were just a teenager. When you are a child, young adult, single adult, individual and single parent with no help or support. When you have been burnt and hurt many times over with career, community and other endeavors throughout your life. When you have been victimized, violated and traumatized as a child, teenager and young adult. When you yourself and your child’s life was threatened to be taken. When you yourself grasp for your next breath knowing it could be your very last and taken by someone you trusted, worked with and called a friend.
It can be challenging to let go of being controlling and a perfectionist. It can be difficult to be trusting and dependent on others. It can be overwhelming, fearful, disappointing and harmful!
It’s not personal towards family, friends, intimate relationships, staff, volunteers, community leaders or even towards yourself! It’s moments from the past and no matter how we try; it’s a part of us forever… It is my hope that ones can understand, respect and not cast shame, blame or dismiss and gossip about one another.
This year, it is my personal goal and objective to surrender and release my own personal vulnerabilities, control and that of being too much of a perfectionist. I will not be involved in all of the minutia and ask for you to not be involved in mine. I will be more patient, understanding and more loving and caring of others and of myself! I will do my best to provide and give more in my community to help others in need and to also know it is ok to do a little for me, myself and I. I will continue to reflect, pray and forgive others and most importantly, myself!
It is my hope you will understand, support and also consider working on your own life. We can all face our challenges, issues, difficulties and master are skills, talents and be more proficient. There is always room for each and everyone of us to improve. If only, we can be honest, admit and release the fear.
With Faith, there is Hope…
PW